I’m exhausted. Mentally and physically exhausted.
Of all the contributors to this exhaustion, the lack of refreshing and uninterrupted sleep is the main culprit…and it hit a new low point the other night.
For the past two months, I have been waking up at night with intense, shooting pain in the middle of my back. Some nights the pain is so extreme that it locks up my rib cage and makes it hard to breathe.
I can’t get comfortable. I can’t stop the pain. I can’t get a good night’s sleep.
I move positions. I try heat. I try stretching. I try anything.
But the pain continues.
For the last two months, I haven’t had a full, refreshing, and uninterrupted night’s sleep.
One of the outcomes if this lack of sleep is I feel perpetually exhausted. My body has begun to revolt by shutting down and dozing off at the most inopportune times.
I’m sitting in a parking lot waiting for my kid after practice. My head bobs forward.
In the stands at my kid’s baseball game. I drift off between pitches.
And then this…
The other night I laid down in bed to finish watching a show before going to sleep. I reached over and grabbed a glass of water off my nightstand. Then,
In the time it took to turn and lean back on my pillow, I fell asleep and spilled a full glass of water in my lap and on my mattress….of course I did.
Exhausted and soaking wet.
Oh well, it’s not like I was going to sleep well anyway….